First Day of my life

I've been horribly uninspired lately. I haven't blogged regularly in forever. I go through these phases like this sometimes. They’re usually associated with some level of homesickness. I was going to write last week on my two year anniversary of moving here, but never bothered to try to sit down and try to find my voice. The thing is that when I don’t blog, I feel more detached and I end up wondering why I’ve stopped in the first place.
I heard a song recently that I liked so much, I stopped what I was doing, bought it and downloaded it. Today, I played it again for the first time since then. I’m playing it now over and over because I don’t know how else to hold on to the effect it's had on me sitting here listening to it. It’s called ‘The first day of my life’ by Bright Eyes and every time I hear it, it takes me someplace and I just love how music can do that.
This song invokes so much emotion when I hear it. Every time it’s something new and different times and people flash through my head – whether it’s two kids on a park bench laughing, talking and enjoying the simplicity of the moment or a couple of newly weds running into the sea in the middle of a late night rain storm – it reminds me of being happy and in love. It’s beautiful, hopeful and honest about when you fall in love, you sometimes forget who you were before that moment and life seems to start again.
Playing it again, I can’t help but think about how it was when Wayne and I met. Before that - I felt so disenchanted, tired and broken and I was really losing hope that things would ever change - then there he was and everything changed and as the song says, I felt like I just woke up.
Click here to listen to The First Day of My Life

Comments

[Lindsey]

Hi Erren
I discovered your blog by accident, I've really enjoyed reading it, it's brought both a tear to my eye and a smile to my face on more than one occasion. Also, I love the 'song of the week'! I've discovered songs I might not have heard otherwise, particulary 'sewn' by The Feeling which I now can't stop listening to. I don't have an ipod or mp3 in real life so it's fun to play with this pretend one LOL!!

[Aniela]

It is good to hear your voice again thru your blog :) Am sorry I haven't been in touch the last two weeks - don't know where the days go anymore.... am around this week if you want to chat.

[Erren]

Lindsey,
Thanks so much. It's really nice to get comments like this, although I'd rather not bring a tear to anyone's eye - a smile on the other hand is a gift I'd gladly give (people don't smile enough in my opinion).
I was just thinking of cutting the song of the week when I re-do the pond hopper site (if I ever find the time) - thinking no-one really listened to it, but I think I'll keep it now. Glad you like the ipod - I thought everyone had one these days...

[Erren]

Aniela,
The phone works both ways - no need to apologise. I'll call if I have time before the weekend. Love to all xo